I tried to run away from the problems I was having, but my story as a prodigal wife proves that we never really get away from things by running from them. The truth is that God’s plan continues to chase us, no matter how far we try to run, and the only way that we can be free is to stop trying to avoid God’s will and embrace it.
I was an example of a prodigal wife, just like so many others, who had run from my husband and abandoned my family for months at a time, just to fulfill my selfish desires. I was greatly deceived and believed that God was calling me to leave my family and pursue my “soul mate.” I kept running in the opposite direction of where God was calling me back home. I found myself in a very bad situation many times, and knew that I had invited misery into my life. I felt like Jonah who ran from God’s assignment, and ended up in the belly of a giant fish. I went through a very long and difficult time before I got a second chance to step in faith and make things right in my life.
I realized that something inside of me was not right and led me on a journey far away from the people that I once loved. The hurt that I caused them was far beyond any words that I could use to describe. I finally cried out to God for help and in response God gave me the same instructions that I had been avoiding to “go home.” But I simply could not imagine that I would end up back in the original place from where I tried to escape for so long!
The thought of going home seemed like it would only be going backwards, and into a life that would not fulfill me. I thought it was the life that I no longer wanted. I could not understand why God was leading me to go home. I could not see beyond the circumstances however, or the BIG PICTURE of what He had in store for us. Regardless of what I thought, I had come face-to-face with the miserable consequences of my choices. I knew that I needed to sacrifice and change things to the way God wanted them.
God kept reminding me of my vows to my husband, and the choice I made to be married “until death do us part” that I made long ago … I simply could not forget, no matter how hard I tried. I accepted the truth and knew deep in my heart that beyond all the pain in our lives, going back was where I belonged.
Even though I wrestled with what God wanted me to do because I thought I had many reasons not to go home, I was given a second chance to finally obey God and returned to my husband. There has been so much of God’s blessings over our marriage and family ever since that dreadful time in our lives.
I believe my story is a good example that proves running from God’s plan is never a good idea. The truth is, God’s plan continues to chase us, and until we surrender our lives to Him we will be miserable. When God calls us to do something, even if we think we have many reasons not to do it, we must be prompt to do it because there is so much blessing in following Him.
Even in hard times, offer God a sacrifice of thanksgiving and keep any vow or promise you have made to Him, and see what He will do!
“But (as for me), I will sacrifice to You With the voice of thanksgiving; I shall pay that which I have vowed. Salvation is of the Lord” (Jonah 2:9).